Tuesday, 28 April 2009

Cinema is Truth

"Cinema is truth, 24 frames per second."
- Jean-Luc Godard -

My latest article has finally been published:

Cinema is Truth.

I know it isn't very good, but I tried my best.


*skips off to watch Fruits Basket*

Friday, 24 April 2009

crawlies. love 'em.

"We hope that, when the insects take over the world, they will remember with gratitude how we took them along on all our picnics."
-Bill Vaughn-

After about 8 months of occupying my room at Hall 8, upon packing and thoroughly clearing out my room, I have realized that my room has magically evolved into a mini self-sustaining ecosystem.

1. Red ants.
Most commonly found in my room (for an unknown reason, they only started to appear in large numbers about 3 months ago), I usually encounter them crawling around on my study table and walls. Occasionally, I spot some of them on my bed and pillow. As to date, I have yet to think of the possibilities that I might have accidentally killed many of them when I'm sleeping, either by accidentally swallowing them or by squashing them flat with my heavy body.

There was once when I mass killed them by pouring my nail polish remover over them.


On a typical night, I usually kill about 10 or so of them.

2. Spiders
Two kinds: The jumpy/hairy kind, and the lanky long legged one.

On usual occasions, I normally don't see them much, but there are times when I would see the jumpy/hairy one jumping around. I try to ignore them, because I think it's plain disgusting to kill them.

Lately, I've been encountering more of the lanky, long legged kind - the one with a tiny negligible body and thin wobbly legs which look like they might break any time. I've just realized that on usual occasions, I don't normally find them, because they were hiding in my old shoe boxes and among my last semester's abandoned lecture notes. In two days of clearing out my room, I have spotted six (yes, I counted) of them:
- One among the styrofoam pieces which was kept in a box which my printer came in.
- Another among my last semester's lecture notes.
- One in my shoe box.
- One in between my shoe boxes.
- One under my bed.
- Another one among my text books.

I didn't kill them (as mentioned before, I think killing spiders are disgusting), and I so do not want to know the possible places they might be in now; or any more of them that I might find in the days to come.


3. Beetles
Not the black tiny ones, but the significantly sized brown ones, which look slightly more intimidating.

I've had a few noisily buzzing around in my room, but I try to ignore them. I think it's utterly disgusting to kill them. I usually find them buzzing around at night, and them mysteriously dead the next morning. I sometimes use a tissue to pick them up and throw them away, but lately I have decided to ignore them.

There is currently a dead one lying at the bottom of one of the corners of my study table. It's sight is fortunately hidden from me, and I don't think I want to bother about it. *ignorance is bliss*

4. Other insects...
Like the semi-decomposed one (which was about 1.5 inches long, may I add) I felt squishing under the palm of my hand when I was picking up my packet of detergent.

I freaked out.

I don't know how long it had been dead there, because I don't usually pick up my packet of detergent; I just scoop the powder off the top and leave the packet lying on the floor.

The other time, I spotted this huge buzzing... uh... thing on the floor, and I was too disgusted to do anything about it.

It was fortunately gone the next day. Don't ask me how.

You may think how the hell was I able to survive with all those crawlies as my room mates, but believe me, if you encounter them frequently enough, you'll get immune to them.

Ever since I started clearing out my room, I've been sneezing non-stop. I have always suspected my room would be dirtier than it looked, but damn, I didn't know my room was that dirty.

You could actually see dust particles flying around.

As of such, I am now escaping my own room.

I think I'll go shopping instead.

post exam.

I constantly find myself on this weird journey called life. As soon as I think I've reached my destination, I find myself smack in the beginning again.


Just about a month ago, I was busying myself with exams and I thought the torture would never end. Now that it's all suddenly over, I honestly don't know what to do with 24 hours a day.

My exam routine goes something like this:

Study, eat, sleep, study, eat, sleep, study, eat, sleep...

And the vicious cycle goes on and on and on. It almost drove me crazy.

There was once I was so emotionally unstable that I broke down into tears and sobbed the entire night. The next day, I was so hungover (yes, I get hangovers if I cried hard enough the night before) I couldn't concentrate on studying. All I wanted to do was close my tired eyes and rest my throbbing head.

I was so eager for all of it to be over, I even made a mental list of post-exam activities:

1. Train my DotA skills up to 5 insane AI+.
2. Go on a HUGE shopping spree.
3. Don't sleep for 24 hours, just for the fun of it.
4. Watch lots and lots of movies. Not the cheap $5 per VCD (original but outdated) kinda thing, but really going to the movies; that $7.50 per movie ticket kinda thing.
5. Treat myself to a posh and expensive dinner buffet (hopefully a Japanese buffet) somewhere at Orchard Road.

Etc. etc.

Now that it's all over, I seriously don't know what to do.

My current list of post-exam activities:
1. Do nothing.
2. Mope around, feeling bored.
3. Miss studying. (Gosh, I know - I totally can't believe it myself!)

I'm going to mope now.



I heard that the Thieve's Market near Bugis is pretty interesting. I hope I get to check it out before I go back to Penang.

Thursday, 23 April 2009

Sappiness over exams

"Drama is life with the dull bits left out."
-Alfred Hitchcock-


Watched 3 movies in a row last night - Fast and Furious 4, Catch and Release, and Love Me if You Dare.

Catch are Release are one of those movies where it's so sweet yet sad at the same time, it makes you wanna cry. I got sappy watching it.

Fell asleep at 7.30 a.m. last night, woke up at 4.30 p.m. today. Am going to call K for breakfast at 5 p.m. after taking a shower.

"It was one of those perfect days. Then, he said '"I've got something to tell you." I asked, "Is it going to me more happy, or less happy?" He said, "Less happy." I said, "Then don't tell me." "
-Catch and Release-

Tuesday, 21 April 2009

Physics 2 framed

I murdered myself today. Physics 2 took the blame.
-Rae's bodiless spirit-

Business Law tomorrow, and Chemistry and What is Cinema on the following day.

I am so blah (whateverthatmeans).

Monday, 20 April 2009

Physics 2

"When the exam begins, a song automatically sings in my head, because I can't study without music."
-Rae to K-

Question 1.

Shit!!! Electric potential and electric field!! How to do?? Die!! Faster find formula!!!

Eh... Differentiate only what...

Aiya, easy lah.


Question 2...

OMG SHIT!!!! Circuits!!! Totally blank! How to do???

*Damn damn damn damn...*

*Damn damn damn damn...*

Aiyo, damn too long just now, 10 seconds wasted. DAMN.

*DAMN DAMN DAMN...* Okay, must stop. another 3 seconds wasted.


Aiya, anyhow throw formula in lah!

*crosses fingers*

Question 3.

Optics!!! MY favourite! Damn easy!!!

Woo hoo!!!

*brain does somersaults*



Eh, not very easy also hor...

But still doable lah.

17 marks... Secured!


Question 4.






Quantum + optics = DIE!!

*die die die die die die die die die die die die die die die*

Shit. 20 seconds gone coz die too much.

Okay. Concentrate.

Hmm... Anyhow throw formula in lah!


Eh, my answer quite logical wor!

*gains confidence*


But why my sin (theta) > 1?

Impossible lah, then sin^(-1) got MATH ERROR LIAO???

Maybe question wrong!!!? Never mind!!! Change values!

*0.215 nm change to 215 nm...*Italic
Rae: Shut up.

Ok!!! if use 215 nm can get answer!!

Kow tim!

But dunno correct or not.


Yay I'm finished!! But still got 30 minutes left.

Never mind, I have good time management.

First 15 minutes:

*damn damn damn damn damn...*

*damn damn damn damn damn...*

Next 15 minutes:

*die die die die die die...*

*die die die die die die...*

"Time is up. Please stop writing."

Yay!! I made good use of my final 30 minutes!!! Woot!!!


"In Physics, you don't have to go around making trouble for yourself - nature does it for you."

-Frank Wilczek-

Physics 2 exam paper tomorrow!!!!!

I'm so prepared for it - NOT.

I'm going to kill myself now.

*kills self*

Friday, 17 April 2009

Hero Rae.

"For any hero you use, ALWAYS buy Power Treads. ALWAYS."

-Kevin Lim-

Rae versus Exam Insane AI+.

Items to buy for Rae:

1. Hairpin (100 Gold) - A small but useful item to pin up any locks of hair that may block one's view. Intelligence +3.

2. Good Quality Parker Pen (900 Gold) - A very high quality pen used for extra-smooth writing, used by most students who achieve CGPA of 5.0. No smudges. Agility +15, Attack speed +5.

3. Thick Jacket (870 Gold) - Protects the wearer from the cold air-conditioning in most exam halls. Agility +5, HP regeneration +5.

4. Coffee (50 Gold) - Temporarily boosts performance. Usage once only. MP regeneration +10 per second for 5 seconds.

5. Calculator (2000 Gold) - Very useful for complex calculations. Agility +10, Strength +20, Intelligence +5.

6. Ipod (3500 Gold) - Good for de-stressing. HP regeneration +20, Intelligence +10.

7. Lecture Notes (400 Gold) - A good foundation for any battle. Strength +5.

8. Past Year Exam Papers (1000 Gold) - Gives the user additional experience for more rapid leveling up. Armour +10, Strength +3.

9. Tutorials (430 Gold) - An aid to Lecture Notes. Strength +10.

10. Notes and Exercises Recipe (2200 Gold) - Boosts the bearer's morale. Armour +30, Strength +50, Agility +20. Items needed: Past Year Exam Papers, Lecture Notes, Tutorials.

Do not buy the following items for Rae; these may cause her attack to malfunction:

Cellphone, Laptop, Video games.

Thursday, 16 April 2009

6 golden hours

Sleeping is no mean art: for its sake one must stay awake all day.
-Friedrich Nietzsche-

Am in a considerably good mood today.

I slept for 6 hours straight last night.


It's the first time in 10 days or so since I've slept this well for 6 WHOLE HOURS without waking up for no apparent reason at all and not being able to go back to sleep.

My usual night goes something like this:

3 - 4 a.m. : Zzzzzz...

4 - 6 a.m : Toss. Turn. Toss. Turn.

6 - 7 a.m. : Zzzzz....

7 a.m. : Toss and turn for about 30 minutes before giving up on sleeping and hitting the books instead.

By 11 a.m., I'm usually sleepy again and then I'll sleep oh-so-very-soundly till about 4 - 5 p.m. or so.

Yes, I've noticed that my biological clock has been turned upside down.

So imagine my utter joy when I woke up this morning feeling so damn fresh coz I actually slept for 6 FREAKING HOURS WITH NO DISRUPTIONS!!!

My sleeping disorder is cured!!!!

Happiness abounds!!!

P.S.: I'm going to sit for my Computing exam paper tomorrow. Wish me lots and lots of luck.

Wednesday, 15 April 2009


Rae is Beyond Godlike. Somebody kill him!!!!!
-DotA messenger screen-

Me versus 1 insane AI+.

See that??


Show you again:


P.S.: I know playing against one Insane AI+ is just too damn easy for some, but keep in mind that:

1. I'm a female, and females are generally noob-ier than guys in DotA.
2. I'm a beginner.

Math 2.

I don't agree with mathematics; the sum total of zeros is a frightening figure.

-Stanislaw J. Lec, More Unkempt Thoughts-

First paper.

Mathematics 2.

A FAIRLY EASY AND SIMPLE question regarding the 2nd order differential equation.



I'm the dumbest person in the whole wide world.

'Nuff said.

Thursday, 9 April 2009

C programming (part 2)

Programming cool. U suck.
-Anonymous on C Programming-

Dear Anonymous,

I do agree with you that programming is cool and I do like programming, especially when I get to create cool programs and tell the computer what to do.

It's just that I've got this programming exam paper to sit for, and I believe that if you were in my shoes and had to sit for that exam, you'd think that programming sucks too, because every single time you think of it, it stresses you out. Right now, I think programming sucks coz I've gotta study it and sit for a stupid exam. On other days, I'd think it's completely cool.

Of thus, I'm sure you'd understand that, my blog being my personal outlet for my pent up feelings, I'd be expected to rant whenever I want to about whatever I like, regardless of whether you agree with me or not.

Besides, who are you to judge if programming is cool or not? I am sure there are lots of people out there (and who are you to judge whether they suck or not?) who thinks computing sucks too and there's nothing you can say to change their minds.

Seeing that you have apparently been unfortunate enough to develop such an ill opinion about me, I doubt you would ever visit my blog again but if you do, I hope you'll be glad to see that I've responded to your comment in such a informative way instead of a hostile one, which you'd probably expect (and deserve).

By the way, I'd presume that you do not have a very good command of English, as can be seen from your grammatical error. I think what you meant to say was, "Programming is cool. You suck." Otherwise, I don't think that your comment actually means anything logical. *Dummy.*

I'd agree with you that programming is cool. However, I regret to tell you that I do not agree with you on your statement saying that I suck, because being politically correct, I don't think you can actually say a person sucks just because he/she has a certain dislike towards computer programming.

Besides, I don't hate programming.

That said, my dear anonymous reader,it is my greatest pleasure to tell you that you suck, too. For no apparent reason at all, besides the fact that I said so.


P.S. Don't worry, I won't remove your original comment. I think other readers deserve to read what you have commented about me, too.

P.P.S. If you wanted to name yourself anonymous, you could at least surf the web anonymously too and try not to use Ntunet as your ISP (whatdya know, we share the same ISP!) and not land on my page through http://guiltcontradicts.blogspot.com, with IP address of By the way, not many people use Chrome as their web browser.

Monday, 6 April 2009

Slum shit

"What are the chances of a person's life experiences preparing him for the quiz, and in chronological order too!??!"
-Yokie on Slumdog Millionaire-


I woke up at 4 p.m. in the morning afternoon yesterday, hit the books, and haven't slept since. It's now 9.40 a.m., and I haven't slept a wink last night.

I studied till 4 a.m. (yes, apparently, I was struggling with Physics from 4 p.m. to 4 a.m. - that's 12 freaking hours of non-stop studying - but only managed to cover TWO stupid chapters, out of 10 or so... Bummer.), tossed and turned till 6.30 a.m., and then decided to continue studying.

I'm so stressed out that I'm beginning to get insomnia.


Sunday, 5 April 2009

IM pic

My current MSN display picture is a 4-second video clip of myself putting on a retarded expression.

I was just IM-ing Yokie...

Me: Btw, what do you think of my MSN display picture? It's an expression of what I think of my academic authorities.
Yokie: It's cute.
Me: YAY!!! You said I'm cute!!
Yokie: I didn't. I meant the expression was cute.
Me: Yeah, but the expression was on my face, and my face is a representation of me, hence, you are saying that I am cute.
Yokie: If you insist that you want to be labeled as ugly but adorable... Sure~~

Ahah. So random.

Saturday, 4 April 2009

Roomie wanted.


P.S.: Before you guys get too excited, may I add that I'm only looking for females.

Friday, 3 April 2009


“Science without religion is lame; religion without science is blind.”
-Albert Einstein-

I don't see why science and religion can't walk hand in hand; in fact, I think both of them actually verify each other in some strange way.

At the very least, it was God Himself who created science, anyway.

I've got this Chemistry quiz tomorrow, and it's times like these when I'd question "WHY THE HELL DID GOD HAVE TO DECIDE TO CREATE 112 ELEMENTS AND ALLOW THEM TO REACT WITH EACH OTHER IN SO MANY FREAKING CONFUSING WAYS????????"

Wednesday, 1 April 2009

MSN spam

"I hate MSN spam messages, but I hate the sender more."

It's funny how I only ever receive phishing spam messages on MSN from three kinds of people:

1. Kids.
You know, those annoying 13-year-olds who think they're oh-so-grown-up and keep trying to talk to you about crap and expects you to amuse them by lowering your intellectual capacity to their level. I usually don't talk to them but if I do, be reminded that it would probably be them who started the conversation first, and I merely replied because I wanted to relieve myself of stress.

They amuse me how they try to act oh-so-grown-up but can't even keep their MSN accounts safe from spam. Probably 'cause their 'innocence' and 'curiosity' prompts them to click on every single link they see.

2. Uneducated people
No, I'm not referring to ALL uneducated people who didn't receive a good education because they were not fortunate enough. I'm referring to those that dropped out of school because they were too dumb to see the importance of education, hence, decided not to study hard when they had the chance to. They're also those who are never in the know and whenever you talk to them about anything at all they'll go "Huh??"

Which probably goes to show the reason why they don't even realize that you SHOULD NEVER simply give your MSN account and password to fake MSN login websites. For obvious reasons.

See, I told you they're dumb.

Here's an example of a fake MSN login website. I trust that my readers are not dumb enough to actually give their MSN e-mails and passwords. If you do, screw you, idiot.

3. People I utterly disrespect.
You'll know them when you see them. They usually smoke, gamble, insert swear words in every other word they say, get into fights, join gangs, sport tattoos, spend more time at the internet cafe than they do at home, and probably do not have a purpose in life. 50% of them didn't make it to high school graduation. Those who did probably scraped through.

Unbeknowst to them (or maybe they are aware of it but they just don't give a damn), their porn website preferences are being made known to every single person on their MSN lists. Yes, you guessed it. Through MSN spam messages.

Usually, after about a week of putting up with this kind of nonsense 20 times a day, I proceed to block them because really, I don't see the point of talking to people who are of low intellectual capacities.

You can now proceed to hate me for discriminating.

But really, didn't these people once had a chance to make the right choices in life?

PC to Mac

"It's annoying that I can't type as fast as I think."

Oh. Mi. Gosh.

You know how PC is always more fucked up than Mac?

Apparently, Microsoft is very aware of this and thus, have inserted a sort of 'cheat' into the Windows Vista (yes, all you Vista users. We have been using Vista for such a long time and nobody said anything about it!!), enabling the user to change the Vista user interface and desktop into Mac style. Complete with the classic bar at the bottom where icons get magnified every time you roll your cursor over them.

I find that very amusing.

I wonder why I didn't find out about this till now.

Being the generous blogger I am, I shall now tell you how I magically changed my old Windows look into a brand new Mac.

1. Log onto your administrator user account.
2. Create a new password for it which says "pctomac".
3. Restart your computer and log onto your administrator account using your new password.
4. Click on the Start icon at your taskbar and click on control panel while holding onto ctrl+alt+Q.
5. Once your control panel window has been opened, switch it to classic view and search for an icon which looks like a silver apple with the name Mac_COM.
6. Click on it, wait for your computer to reboot, and VOILA!!!!

Yes, I know. I couldn't believe it myself!!! I have been using Vista for AGES and NOBODY told me about this!!!!!!

UPDATE: You might want to read the comments of this post before trying out.

UPDATE 2: Don't get too disappointed though; here's a link that may (hopefully) make your PC look a bit more Mac-ish.